The One About The 'Glow-up' w/ Kate Kendrick

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Ah, yes.

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There it is.

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We're back Becks.

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We are, and I love the background this week, Blane.

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Oh, well, you know what? I'm not in my normal studio.

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Oh, got it.

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Where are you at? Can you guess whose studio this is? It, you know, looks like possibly Courtney Pearl's.

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You are absolutely correct.

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It's Courtney Pearl's, the host of Practically Magic.

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I'm over here.

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We're working on a big project coming out in the fall.

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Awesome.

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It's got something to do with some witch movies.

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I'm telling you that right now.

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It's gonna be fun.

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Honestly, I'll just tell you this.

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Borrow the, uh, the pop up movie screening.

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Hey, we're doing a big event over here too.

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So yeah, maybe we can combine events.

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I don't know.

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I'll have to get in touch.

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I love it.

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So there's always something popping off in daybreak.

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Always.

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It's true.

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Yeah.

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Summer pool party is this weekend.

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It is this Saturday, y'all.

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6 to 8 PM.

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Whoa.

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Be there.

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We got, we're going to be there.

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Where is that? That is going to be at South County Pool in Riverton.

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So if you would like more information, you can jump on either any of our, uh, social media sites, right? Like we've been sharing it like crazy.

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So visit us at, uh, radiodaybreak.

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com.

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You can find us there.

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Um, Instagram, Facebook, you can find us there or goodbetterbecks.

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com or excuse me.

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What's my handle, Blane? What is your handle? Becks underscore.

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We'll find it.

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They'll find the pull bar.

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If not, they probably got a flyer in the mail too.

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Yeah, or you know, just quickly scan that QR code now! Scan the QR code.

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Sign up, get your tickets.

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It's free.

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The tickets are free.

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You just got to register to make sure we get a head count.

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That's right.

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Cause we're having food trucks, food trucks out there.

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What else we got? We got the DBC, the Daybreak Business Community.

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That is where we, where we also met our wonderful guests coming up today.

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Kate Kendrick.

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I can't wait to get to her.

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Oh, she's so interesting.

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Oh my goodness.

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Like it's wild.

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Everybody I've talked to.

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And I said, we're going to interview Kate Kendrick.

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They went, Oh, she's the, and they'll, they'll fill in a blank.

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And it's a different blank.

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And it's always different.

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Yes, exactly.

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Before we get to her Cambria Davis, the astral day breaks.

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Astrologer is doing a incredible workshop for the DBC Thursday.

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Thursday.

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Get out there to that.

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You got to see that.

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These things are incredible for all the business owners around.

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If you want to sign up for one of these workshops, let us know that too.

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Yes.

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Shout out where that's going to be held.

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Novel by Crescent Communities.

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Novel Daybreak by Crescent Communities.

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You got it.

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Right there on Lakeland Road.

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Yep.

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Novel Apartments.

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She's amazing, you guys.

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You don't want to miss this.

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Thursday evening.

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Is there anything else before we can get to this exciting guest? Oh, I don't think so.

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I think that's all I have.

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Anything you can think of? No, I don't think so.

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Kate Kendrick! Hello! Welcome! Kendrick, like Kendrick Lamar.

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Like, Kendrick Lamar has nothing to do with him.

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Nope! Nope.

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Nope.

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I gotta tell you guys this.

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I gotta start off with this because I do have some insider information in the Kendrick Lamar camp.

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For anybody out there that's been watching the, the, the Rat Beef.

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It might be over, but I don't know.

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It may not.

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I've been talking to a couple people over there, but anyway, anyway, that's not what we're here for.

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We're not here for Kendrick Lamar, we're here for Kate Kendrick.

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Thank you.

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That's right.

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Welcome.

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You walked into a DBC meeting a couple months back, and bubbly, personable, and literally Didn't know what the hell she was doing.

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I'm right.

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Yeah.

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Well, I got a chance to meet King Benjamin, you know, Ben Brown.

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I met him at a comedy show and, um, he was also working at the coffee shop here in New York and I got to know him a little bit and.

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Kind of, our stories are kind of parallel.

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I did not raise up on, I was not raised on a polygamist camp.

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I do not.

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That's where it differs a little, huh? It differs a little, but I mean, I really, I knew who he was and I was inspired by him and we And then after his comedy show at Wise Guys, he said, Hey, you should come to this Daybreak meeting that we have.

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It's just, it's just like a little networking thing.

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So come on down.

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And I said, well, I like people.

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I like to know new people and I love Daybreak.

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I walk around the lake pretty much every day.

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I love it.

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So.

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Um, it turned out to be a really good choice.

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Now remember that's the Oak er Lake, that's how you say it.

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That's how you say it? Yeah, yeah, for sure.

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Oak er Lake.

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Oak er Lake, yeah.

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I didn't know, I learned something new.

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Thank you, Blane.

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I do too, every time he repeats it.

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But that's, that's, so, so, It sounds like you were going through some sort of change or something.

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Oh, well, right there was a change.

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We had a change in my lighting.

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It's decided.

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You can still see.

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Yeah.

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Well, the story kind of goes where last year I turned 45 years old.

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And for my birthday, I got a sweet midlife crisis.

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Oh, awesome.

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Cause in a matter of months, I resigned from 18 years of teaching elementary school, grad school, halfway through the program.

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I left the Mormon faith.

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I went from being pretty homophobic to being a fierce ally for my LGBTQ child.

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I divorced my husband.

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We sold our home.

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I had to pack up everything that I owned and cram it into a 10 by 10 storage unit and lived in daybreak for a little while until I could get back up on my feet.

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I was unemployed and happier than I'd ever been in my life.

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Just changing all of these things where a former version of myself probably would have been terrified.

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Had I, like this self gone to visit a younger version of myself, she would have cried.

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Stayed in bed, don't want this to happen.

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But having gone through it, I, I can generally say I am happier than I have been ever, and I've learned a lot of skills, a lot of tools along the way.

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And that's kind of where I am at this point.

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I'm at this crossroads trying to figure out where I'm going in life.

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How long was that journey, Kate, that you went through all of that? What was that timeframe? It was from May of last year until August of.

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Last year and in the world all of that transition happened all of that change in your well And then yeah, and then I moved out In January of this year, but you know, my car died.

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My dog died.

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We just I all I needed was like pregnancy or there is my midlife crisis for you right there.

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Oh my word.

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That is a short amount of time.

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So you're talking like six months total life transformation.

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Sure.

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Yeah.

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Okay.

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So we have to ask like, what, what got you through that? Like, first off, where do you find the courage? Were you just like, I'm doing this and Here we go.

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Uh, I, I've been asking myself that question for quite a while and I think it's come to the thing that I've, I've come to the realization that it's because of a lot of the tools and the skills that I've learned over the years.

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So, I mean, yes, I've been in and out of therapy since I was younger to kind of help self reflection is really important.

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Being able to look at oneself and to be self awareness is huge.

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And, um, recognizing that I need to work on some stuff.

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So understanding what I had control over and what I didn't have control over was huge, making that decision rather than focusing on like all of these things that are happening are outside my control rather than focusing on them, I focused on.

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All right, these are the steps that I can take and these are the things I can do.

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I also made sure that community was huge and it was very important for me to reach out and find people to support me through this and it was remarkable what I was able to find because I genuinely don't think we can't do anything in our lives on our own.

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I mean, we, yes, even the best, most self made people could not get where they were, where they are today, had it not been for the help of other people.

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Did you used to try to do everything by yourself and not ask for help and then shift that way? Oh, sure.

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Sure.

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I think a lot of us do.

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I think our pride, our ego kind of gets in the way and we're like, Oh yeah, look at me.

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I can do everything on my own, but if we're really truthful and honest and who we are, we're, we're social creatures.

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Humans are social creatures.

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We can't do things on our own.

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We need other people.

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And I'm extroverted.

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I'm, I'm an ENFP.

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I'm very, very extroverted, but even as an extrovert, I need my alone time.

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And even the most introverted of people's people need other people as well.

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So yeah, Midlife crisis.

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I don't think, I don't think it's midlife crisis though, Kate.

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I think it's your experiences and your skill sets coming together with age and it's wisdom coming out.

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I don't think midlife crisis or what they, what people think they are.

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I think it's the wisdom and I think it's other stuff that you want to get out there and make the changes.

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And if you're not happy, then guess what? Yeah.

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I will figure out how to make myself happy.

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I think that's what.

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So experience and figuring it out and then, you know, just making those decisions based on the wisdom and the knowledge of life.

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Exactly.

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I think, I hate the term midlife crisis.

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Yeah, and I only use that because I think people can relate.

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Relate, yeah.

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What I think, though, is, um, I call it a midlife glow up.

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There you go.

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I love it.

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Like a midlife transition, a midlife awakening, a midlife glow up is really what I think because I am happier than I've been in a very long time.

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So, um, in fact, there's another friend of mine that I met here who lives in Daybreak.

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And she and I connected, uh, as she knew my husband through work.

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And we had met once.

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Maybe like four or five years ago.

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And then we went out for coffee a little while ago and she said, you would look like 15 years younger than you did five years ago, because I have had this awakening and this awareness and this ability to be authentically myself.

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So if you want to hear a little bit about the story, it's very, very complicated.

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But if you've got some time, I'll share some of that.

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Um, it started last year when my husband at the time made this unilateral decision to move out of state to the Pacific Northwest.

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And I said, that's really cool.

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It was a second marriage for us.

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And he had kids from his first marriage.

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I had one, I have one from my first marriage.

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And I said, that's really cool on your part because you can.

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Your youngest is just graduating from high school and that's great for you, but my youngest, my only child has two more years of high school.

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Could you wait two years? Move.

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And he said, no, I feel called and inspired that I need to do this now.

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And, and, and he said, but, and, and my 16 year old is, is Theo.

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He said, Theo's going to want to move with us.

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And I said, Theo, do you want to move with us? And they said, no, I don't want to move.

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Yeah.

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That's a hard age to leave your friends.

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And you know, you've already started high school, got two more years.

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If you're playing sports, that's a whole other issue.

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Right.

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And having a dad lives here.

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So like nothing was up there and Theo's like, no, I don't want to move.

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And I said, yeah.

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Okay, I'm putting this literally put in a position where I had to choose between my husband and my only child.

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And you think that the answer would be simple.

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You choose your child, right? But I was in this position, I mean, a lot of religious pressure to make a marriage work.

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Um, I made that decision that I would, I would move to the Pacific Northwest.

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And I told, I told Theo, I'm like, I'm so sorry, this is what's going to happen, but we're going to make it work.

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I'm going to like FaceTime you every day.

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We'll fly you up.

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I'll fly back.

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We're going to make this work.

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And, but inside my mama heart was just like, I hate this.

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This feels awful.

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Fast forward to last June.

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So, a year ago, um, my husband was getting ready to move to Seattle for two months of training for his new position that he was taking in a different part.

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It wasn't in, it was in a different city in the state.

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And, um, I stayed behind because I was in my, in my getting my master's.

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I had resigned from teaching because I was done.

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I think after 18 years, teacher burnout is a real thing.

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It really is.

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And I said, I was done with that, but I was going to try, I got like a job teaching drama up in Seattle until I could figure things out.

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And, um, But I was going to stay behind, work on my master's degree.

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I was halfway through master of arts and teaching fine arts.

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And, um, I was gonna make sure the house sold.

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I was going to make sure that things got packed up and then I would join my husband in Seattle after, after Labor Day.

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Well, while he's gone, I have just a huge weight on my shoulders just thinking about all of these questions that I had in my faith and thinking how it wasn't fair that I was put in this position to have to choose between one family member and another.

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Yeah.

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It just did not seem fair.

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And.

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Um, but I had other questions and things.

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My, uh, and Theo is, is transgender.

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And I was also pretty closed minded at the time.

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I was like, no, that's not right.

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I'm your mom.

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I know better.

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I'm smarter than you.

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You listen to your parents, you know, uh, that was problematic.

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Um, and a lot of this weight was weighing on me until finally the, the end of July.

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I.

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Questioned everything and started reading and I did a deep dive and realized that my faith did not align with my beliefs and I said, I'm I'm done.

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I'm leaving this and I called up my husband.

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And let him know.

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Cause I think that was important for him to know this part, because your faith is huge.

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Yeah.

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Right.

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And I called him up and I said, I, I don't believe I'm leaving the faith.

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And he said, how could you do this without my, without letting me know, I'm letting you know now.

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And it's my faith, not yours, believe whatever you want.

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Um, but it was, we had a conversation and ultimately decided that we couldn't stay married.

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Right.

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He asked me to do a mixed faith marriage.

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And I said, no, we can't do a mixed faith marriage because a mixed faith marriage has to be based on, it has to be based on a solid foundation.

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And you put me in a position where I had to choose between you and my only child.

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That is not a solid foundation.

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And so we divorced, we were finished.

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But before that happened, I had the entire.

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The month of August to pack up everything I owned and deconcept my faith and file for a divorce and deal with some really big challenges in my life.

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Make sure that I was okay.

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And as I was a school teacher and now had to change everything, I can't go to Seattle anymore.

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I had to call them up the job that I had and I said, I'm sorry, I'm not coming anymore.

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I'm staying here for my child.

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At least until they graduate from high school.

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And, um, during all of this, I was, and we had no money.

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I had no place to live.

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I was just in a very frantic state of mind, but at the same time, so much peace.

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I would wake up each morning saying like, how am I doing so well? As well as I'm doing, because I should be freaking out, but I'm doing awesome right now.

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I was able to like liberation.

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I'm, I'm free from all of this.

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It was, it was, you were free.

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Cause you didn't have God anymore.

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You didn't have, you know what I mean? Like it was.

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Just you, right? Or maybe she did, just in a different sense.

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And I'm still figuring that out.

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So, what I did, um, My birthday was the first of August, the first week of August.

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August 3rd is my birthday.

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I made the decision to leave the church on the 23rd.

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My, my husband and I divided, decided to divorce on the 30th.

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And then August 3rd was my birthday.

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And I said, for my birthday, I'm giving myself the gift of authenticity permission to be myself.

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And so I did a big, long Facebook post to everybody in the world that I knew saying, Hey world, it's my birthday.

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And here's some stuff I want to share about who I am at this age.

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I, um, My, I'm not moving to Seattle after all, because everybody knew I was making plans as my husband and I are no longer going, we're not going to stay married.

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Secondly, I think it's important for you to know that I'm leaving the faith and.

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I, you can believe what you wanna believe.

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I'm not going to try to pressure you to believe anything different.

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Yeah.

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But I think it's important for you to know, because I was very stalwart before and now I, I'm, I'm a different person then I need a job network with who do you know? How can you help me? I can't get a teaching job right now because I'm packing up my life.

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I don't have time to go set up a classroom and start a school year.

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I mean, that's stressful.

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I, I'm barely surviving here and I need a place to live.

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Well, I had, I made this post and I was very true and authentic.

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Who do you know who could help? And a friend of mine said, come and stay with me.

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And I lived in, in a basement apartment for about four months as I was recovering from these major life changes, trying to find work, I was substitute teaching.

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I took a job just at an elementary school here close to daybreak.

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And, um, I was in the first part of January and.

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I worked that job for seven weeks, but my mental health was on a gradual decline.

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I couldn't do it.

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I just couldn't.

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I was in such a dark place.

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And additionally, I wasn't showing up for the kids the way they deserved.

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You know, it was, they, they weren't happy with me.

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I wasn't happy with them.

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And the former teacher, like the teacher that I used to be, who loved teaching and engaging with children and helping them, was like, Kate.

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This is not good for you.

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So I resigned.

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I quit.

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That's big.

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You needed money.

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You had money, but you weren't giving the little ones what they needed.

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A hundred percent.

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Yeah.

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Like you knew you were capable of prior.

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Yeah.

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You knew you had some heavy stuff going on, Kate.

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You could have just went through the motions and kept getting that check.

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Yeah, but I was unhappy.

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I came home every day.

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Just the kids were unhappy.

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Not that the school was great.

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The administrator was great.

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Everything was great.

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It was just no longer fit.

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And so when I look at these changes in my life, I feel like.

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Liken it to like a snake shedding its skin.

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These were parts that fit me.

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Once upon a time, teaching used to fit me being a member of this, this religion used to fit me being in this marriage used to fit me, no longer fits me.

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And so I had to shed that and what I was trying to do with this teaching position was trying to.

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Cram that skin back on me fit dang it fit and it did and I learned the hard way that that was that was a problem so fortunately I'm not destitute when we sold the house I uh I got a larger percentage of the equity of the home because We rolled the alimony into my, we rolled it into the cell of the house.

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So I've had that to work with.

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I've had great opportunities to just get to know, um, uh, get a chance to, I mean, I'm working different jobs here and there.

348
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I substitute taught, I taught, I then got a job as a studio teacher, which is really cool.

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And so I can tell us about this.

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Yeah, I think that you have another kind of fun little job that you picked up, right? Right, right.

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So the other job I took as a studio teacher, it happened last fall, and this is where social media can be a great tool.

352
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Where I was on Facebook and some of my friends knew that I was looking for work and there, I'm a theater kid.

353
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I know a lot of people in theater and someone saw a post about how There was a project being filmed last October in North Salt Lake and they needed a studio teacher, someone to teach the kids on set, the children actors.

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And I, I responded to this post.

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I said, I'm, I'm, I'm a licensed teacher.

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I can do this.

357
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And so they hired me on the spot and I went up to North Salt Lake for a few weeks and I got to work with the children actors, so, and there was a lot to say.

358
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Yeah, there are laws in place where the kids can't work class a certain hour.

359
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They've got to make sure that they are, um, taken care of.

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We just need to make sure that we don't have any, you know, Miley Cyrus's or, you know, Shia LaBeouf's, you know, you got to also serve as a welfare agent for these kids, make sure that they're taken care of.

361
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So you really were playing advocate as well.

362
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Yes, definitely an advocate.

363
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And then in addition, I got a chance to Then just this last May, oh, that was a lot of fun.

364
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I had a great time, but I was like, that was a one and done.

365
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Maybe I don't want to do this.

366
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Maybe I will.

367
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So I put on Utah Film Commission, uh, my little profile.

368
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My, everything that I needed.

369
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Um, and just in May, I got a call from, um, Another company down in southern Utah where there's a western film that was being filmed down there.

370
00:22:40,108.5839202 --> 00:22:45,808.5839202
And I got to go have a chance to be the studio teacher for these kids on set down there as well.

371
00:22:46,138.5839202 --> 00:22:57,838.5839202
And then I just got back from Moab where I got a chance to work with a couple of kids with one child in, uh, and I can say this one, it's called Navajo Highways, which is this beautiful.

372
00:22:58,18.5839202 --> 00:23:06,998.5839202
Beautiful educational program, uh, designed for Navajo kids to learn Diné, to learn their native tongue, to learn about their culture and their history.

373
00:23:07,358.5829202 --> 00:23:09,498.5839202
And it's, it's so fun.

374
00:23:09,538.5839202 --> 00:23:12,988.5839202
And I feel like what's happening is that I need to get a charger for my computer.

375
00:23:12,988.5839202 --> 00:23:19,688.5839202
So I'm going to talk while I'm going to grab that, because that's what we do when I'm looking at this and I'm trying to stay focused and like, I can't do it.

376
00:23:20,128.5839202 --> 00:23:20,548.5839202
I just can't.

377
00:23:21,358.5839202 --> 00:23:21,848.5839202
All right.

378
00:23:21,848.6839202 --> 00:23:22,928.5639202
We're gonna die.

379
00:23:22,928.5639202 --> 00:23:23,668.5839202
We're gonna die.

380
00:23:24,668.5839202 --> 00:23:25,268.5839202
Oh my goodness.

381
00:23:25,888.5839202 --> 00:23:28,788.5839202
So I'm gonna go for as long as I can until I get this.

382
00:23:28,978.5839202 --> 00:23:29,668.5829202
I'm so embarrassed.

383
00:23:29,818.5829202 --> 00:23:30,88.5839202
I'm sorry.

384
00:23:30,778.5829202 --> 00:23:31,48.5829202
Don't be.

385
00:23:31,368.5839202 --> 00:23:32,558.5839202
You know, this is great.

386
00:23:32,568.5829202 --> 00:23:34,798.5839202
This is so great.

387
00:23:35,768.5829202 --> 00:23:38,578.5839202
I am a little ADD friend, just so you know.

388
00:23:38,578.6839202 --> 00:23:46,213.5839202
And we're back to being charged and Now, oh good, we're not gonna do that.

389
00:23:46,213.6839202 --> 00:23:49,693.5839202
Yay! You saved it.

390
00:23:49,703.5839202 --> 00:23:50,783.5839202
We all were nervous.

391
00:23:52,283.5839202 --> 00:23:54,433.5839202
Had a little tour of my apartment as we were going.

392
00:23:54,823.5839202 --> 00:24:12,203.5839202
So, anyhow, I, um, As I'm going through these adventures of my life, I feel like I'm also Living in my twenties for the first time, because in the culture in which I was raised, there were very high expectations that were given.

393
00:24:12,313.5839202 --> 00:24:20,473.5839202
And I didn't feel like I had a voice or a choice, or I didn't feel like I had an opportunity to really figure out who I was and what I wanted in this life.

394
00:24:20,853.5829202 --> 00:24:24,63.5839202
And so it was graduate from high school, enroll in college.

395
00:24:24,93.5839202 --> 00:24:24,353.5839202
Okay.

396
00:24:24,353.5839202 --> 00:24:27,323.5839202
Now go on a two year, go on a mission, come back.

397
00:24:27,618.5839202 --> 00:24:30,158.5839202
Graduate, get married, pop out babies.

398
00:24:30,548.5839202 --> 00:24:39,68.5839202
It was just, it was very prescriptive and I didn't feel like I had time to really figure out who I was and what I wanted.

399
00:24:39,108.5839202 --> 00:24:42,438.5839202
I did not get to go backpack across Europe or try a different.

400
00:24:43,458.5839202 --> 00:24:43,918.5839202
Jobs.

401
00:24:43,928.5839202 --> 00:24:51,88.5839202
And so what I was doing then was just doing what was expected of me without really feeling like this is what I wanted.

402
00:24:51,368.5839202 --> 00:24:57,258.5834202
And then now here I am in my mid forties with this midlife awakening or glow up or whatever.

403
00:24:57,258.5834202 --> 00:25:02,698.5829202
And I have the time now to explore what I like and what I want to do.

404
00:25:03,48.5839202 --> 00:25:03,883.4839202
And I'm, I'm.

405
00:25:04,293.5839202 --> 00:25:05,143.5839202
Thrilled to death.

406
00:25:05,163.5839202 --> 00:25:11,683.5839202
And so I worked at a nursery for a little while and it just wrapped up, um, because it was seasonal.

407
00:25:11,703.5839202 --> 00:25:21,293.5839202
I, so I don't have that kind of work right now, but I am working toward building my life coaching and public speaking business as well.

408
00:25:21,713.5839202 --> 00:25:31,533.5829202
I, and I'm so thankful for the opportunity I had to go to these meetings here in Daybreak, the community, the, the business meetings, because I don't know the first thing about entrepreneurship.

409
00:25:32,163.5839202 --> 00:25:42,713.5839202
I worked in, I know I, but I was working in a public school for all of these years where I didn't, you don't learn that stuff as an educator.

410
00:25:42,963.5839202 --> 00:25:44,263.5839202
It's the same thing.

411
00:25:44,773.5839202 --> 00:25:46,413.5839202
And I have nothing against education.

412
00:25:46,413.5839202 --> 00:25:54,643.5829202
I am a huge advocate of education and I think teachers are phenomenal and they're not paid or respected the way that they need to be.

413
00:25:55,443.5829202 --> 00:25:57,183.5829202
It just doesn't fit for me any longer.

414
00:25:57,573.5829202 --> 00:26:00,853.5829202
And unfortunately I didn't have, I was never taught business.

415
00:26:01,308.5839202 --> 00:26:02,158.5839202
I don't know the first thing.

416
00:26:02,268.5839202 --> 00:26:12,568.5839202
So I'm going to these meetings and networking, getting to know people like you, Blane and Becks, and how, and the remarkable people at these meetings, uh, networking is so great, where.

417
00:26:12,913.5839202 --> 00:26:15,363.5839202
I'm, I say, I think I want to do some life coaching.

418
00:26:15,373.5839202 --> 00:26:19,473.5839202
And then there's a life coach there at the meeting saying, Oh, I can help you.

419
00:26:19,763.5839202 --> 00:26:20,253.5839202
Come on in.

420
00:26:20,573.5839202 --> 00:26:21,763.5839202
We're going to, we're going to talk.

421
00:26:21,773.5829202 --> 00:26:23,623.5839202
We're going to visit, or I want to be a public speaker.

422
00:26:23,663.5839202 --> 00:26:25,903.5839202
Ooh, I have got some great tools and ideas for you.

423
00:26:26,413.5839202 --> 00:26:27,953.5839202
And so they're helping.

424
00:26:28,348.5839202 --> 00:26:33,558.5839202
They're helping me as I'm figuring out who my, who I am and what my life is.

425
00:26:33,578.5839202 --> 00:26:43,518.5839202
So I, I'm so glad that you say that, that you are moving into life coaching because I was just thinking, you know, you're not alone in this journey.

426
00:26:43,848.5839202 --> 00:27:00,573.5839202
You're definitely not alone here in this state, in, in your path specifically, you know, with, um, The social circles that are often tied to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints, right? Like, so you're definitely not alone in this space.

427
00:27:01,243.5839202 --> 00:27:36,298.5839202
And I think that's the biggest message, right? To share here is not only have you realized that you've now made a network outside of that, and, and which has helped for you social wise, you know, psych social wise, and here you are now Turning this difficult, challenging experience into something where you're able to help people, whether it's a similar journey or something that is a little bit outside of that, maybe not your exact journey, but you're able to provide some tools and knowledge and education for others.

428
00:27:36,338.5829202 --> 00:27:39,798.5839202
Like that is so powerful for me to hear that.

429
00:27:39,838.5839202 --> 00:27:41,38.5839202
So just thank you.

430
00:27:41,38.5839202 --> 00:27:45,378.5839202
I guess I just wanted to say, thank you for sharing your message and doing that.

431
00:27:45,378.5839202 --> 00:27:51,373.5839202
Then, you know, in turn for others to help them through their hard, whatever that looks like, or maybe.

432
00:27:52,93.5839202 --> 00:27:52,513.5839202
Right.

433
00:27:52,513.6839202 --> 00:28:03,633.5839202
I mean, she had the right spirit when she walked into the DBC meeting the first time and said, I don't know what I'm doing, but I'm here to be a sponge.

434
00:28:03,653.5839202 --> 00:28:04,283.5839202
I remember this.

435
00:28:04,553.5839202 --> 00:28:05,183.5839202
Yeah.

436
00:28:05,683.5839202 --> 00:28:06,753.5839202
And that's what she's been doing.

437
00:28:06,763.5839202 --> 00:28:11,23.5839202
And that's, that's really what an entrepreneur's spirit really is.

438
00:28:11,103.5829202 --> 00:28:12,823.5839202
It's just to soak it in.

439
00:28:13,178.5839202 --> 00:28:13,758.5839202
Soak it in.

440
00:28:13,758.5839202 --> 00:28:14,558.5839202
You're doing that.

441
00:28:15,168.5839202 --> 00:28:16,528.5839202
You've opened your mind up.

442
00:28:16,558.5839202 --> 00:28:19,868.5839202
You've, you've gotten rid of some of those chains.

443
00:28:20,258.5839202 --> 00:28:25,278.5839202
You said you were homophobic at one point, and then now you've got a transgender child.

444
00:28:25,893.5839202 --> 00:28:27,953.5839202
You had the flag behind you in the background.

445
00:28:28,603.5839202 --> 00:28:30,283.5839202
That's going to open up new opportunities.

446
00:28:30,283.5839202 --> 00:28:31,803.5839202
Am I right? Yeah.

447
00:28:31,903.5839202 --> 00:28:38,523.5829202
In fact, speaking of, I started a TikTok channel when I was going through this whole thing.

448
00:28:38,563.5829202 --> 00:28:42,363.5839202
I mean, I had a friend who was doing TikTok and she knew of my life changes.

449
00:28:42,363.5839202 --> 00:28:49,23.5839202
And she said, Kate, why don't you start this to kind of document your journey? And I'm like, are you sure? And she said, yes.

450
00:28:49,23.5839202 --> 00:28:51,923.5839202
And so I started this, I call it Midlife Exmo Mama.

451
00:28:52,258.5839202 --> 00:28:58,678.5839202
Because I like alliteration for one, and it also, those are my identifiers.

452
00:28:58,938.5839202 --> 00:29:00,528.5839202
I'm going through this midlife crisis.

453
00:29:00,528.5839202 --> 00:29:03,828.5839202
I'm, I identify as an expo and I'm, I'm a mama.

454
00:29:03,908.5839202 --> 00:29:04,448.5839202
I'm a mom.

455
00:29:04,708.5829202 --> 00:29:05,868.5829202
My child.

456
00:29:06,418.5839202 --> 00:29:19,878.5834202
And I started documenting my journey and made, So many connections with people who are just like me and I didn't feel alone and I've been actually able to meet people that I met on TikTok in, in person.

457
00:29:19,878.5834202 --> 00:29:24,798.5839202
I'm using, I, yes, maybe I spend a little bit too much time on social media, but I use it as a tool.

458
00:29:25,118.5829202 --> 00:29:25,468.5829202
Yeah.

459
00:29:25,538.5829202 --> 00:29:32,588.5829202
How can I connect? How can I share my experience? How can I learn from other people's experiences? And how can I um, just this last.

460
00:29:33,218.5839202 --> 00:29:45,768.5839202
March, there was, uh, David Archuleta, uh, released a song called Hell Together, where he talks about his journey of coming out as gay and leaving the Mormon church.

461
00:29:46,408.5839202 --> 00:29:57,728.5839202
And then his mom made this beautiful transformation where she said, ultimately, if you're going to hell, Then we're going to go to hell together.

462
00:29:58,708.5839202 --> 00:30:02,658.5839202
She left the church and loved and embraced him for who he is.

463
00:30:02,968.5839202 --> 00:30:09,256.0475274
And I just bawled my eyes out because the song hit me so hard because I was like, that's my journey.

464
00:30:09,256.0475274 --> 00:30:10,466.0188131
That's my journey too.

465
00:30:10,466.0188131 --> 00:30:17,78.5839202
And so I did a Tik TOK video, um, back in March set to this song.

466
00:30:17,88.5839202 --> 00:30:30,368.5839202
And I kind of talked about my journey to challenge my own biases and learn and grow as a mom, where I thought I was, um, I thought that I had all the answers that I knew everything, but I didn't.

467
00:30:30,628.5839202 --> 00:30:34,808.5839202
And, and Theo and I really struggled for a very, very, very long time.

468
00:30:34,808.6839202 --> 00:30:36,858.5839202
I mean, they didn't like me.

469
00:30:36,858.5839202 --> 00:30:37,648.5839202
I don't like them.

470
00:30:37,918.5839202 --> 00:30:41,908.5829202
We had this really awful relationship, but it was after I did the work.

471
00:30:42,868.5829202 --> 00:30:43,748.5829202
I looked inward.

472
00:30:43,748.5839202 --> 00:30:49,968.5839202
I held up that mirror and said, what can I do to change? What can I do to change? I can't change my child.

473
00:30:50,233.5839202 --> 00:30:51,973.5839202
No, you can love your child.

474
00:30:52,383.5839202 --> 00:30:55,433.5839202
I can love my, I, but at the time I accept your child.

475
00:30:55,503.5839202 --> 00:30:55,953.5839202
Yeah.

476
00:30:56,203.5839202 --> 00:30:59,543.5829202
But at the time I couldn't because of these biases that I had right.

477
00:30:59,723.5839202 --> 00:31:00,143.5839202
Yeah.

478
00:31:00,393.5839202 --> 00:31:01,53.5839202
Blocked me.

479
00:31:01,393.5839202 --> 00:31:10,883.5839202
So I had to do the work I did about a year and a half of studying and listening to podcasts and reading the literature, talking to other parents with LGBTQ youth.

480
00:31:11,513.5839202 --> 00:31:29,478.5829202
And one day, um, It was last, last year in, in March, um, Theo was in a play at the Pioneer Theater Company and everyone in the cast and the crew used their pronouns, they, them, and I hadn't until that point.

481
00:31:29,928.5829202 --> 00:31:33,628.5829202
And they used those pronouns and I saw the difference it made.

482
00:31:33,718.6839202 --> 00:31:38,628.5839202
I saw like how they lit up, how they felt loved, how they felt validated.

483
00:31:38,898.5839202 --> 00:31:42,458.5839202
They felt more loved and validated by complete strangers than they did by their own mom.

484
00:31:42,458.6839202 --> 00:31:45,478.5829202
And that killed me inside.

485
00:31:45,498.5839202 --> 00:31:48,938.5839202
And I said, you know what? Yeah, I'm wrong.

486
00:31:49,778.5839202 --> 00:31:50,468.5829202
I'm wrong.

487
00:31:50,878.5839202 --> 00:31:56,168.5839202
And that very day I said, you know what, Theo, and Theo is not the name they went by at the time.

488
00:31:56,198.5839202 --> 00:31:58,378.5839202
That's also a new transition we're, we're going through.

489
00:31:58,758.5839202 --> 00:32:01,658.5839202
But I said, you know what? I.

490
00:32:02,413.5839202 --> 00:32:10,263.5839202
I'm going to start using your pronouns because I was wrong and I need to love you and our relationship is now better than it's ever been.

491
00:32:10,733.5839202 --> 00:32:23,423.5505869
So I made this Tik Tok video about my journey and Good Morning America found this Tik Tok video and they invited me and Theo to come be on this solo speech.

492
00:32:23,423.5505869 --> 00:32:28,893.5839202
Blane literally just flew off his chair, flew off his chair, whatever I'm trying to say.

493
00:32:29,103.6839202 --> 00:32:31,613.4839202
Yes.

494
00:32:31,973.5839202 --> 00:32:32,573.5839202
Yeah.

495
00:32:32,573.5839202 --> 00:32:42,213.5839202
So we get a chance to go and share our journey and share our experience because this is something that I think other parents need to hear.

496
00:32:43,223.5829202 --> 00:32:51,563.5839202
I think they need to hear that if you have a child that has come out as LGBTQ, you can't control that.

497
00:32:52,103.5839202 --> 00:32:52,713.5839202
You can't.

498
00:32:53,633.5839202 --> 00:32:54,923.5839202
What you can do, parents.

499
00:32:56,213.5839202 --> 00:32:57,943.5839202
Is you can challenge your beliefs.

500
00:32:58,183.5839202 --> 00:33:03,643.5839202
You can challenge those things that really put a wedge between you and your child.

501
00:33:04,453.5839202 --> 00:33:08,63.5839202
But I also want to have a message for those LGBTQ kids.

502
00:33:09,78.5839202 --> 00:33:16,678.5839202
It's give your parents the space to learn and grow because they've got a lifetime of unlearning to do.

503
00:33:16,678.6839202 --> 00:33:26,268.5829202
It's like they've been raised with societal expectations, with indoctrination, with whatever.

504
00:33:26,608.5829202 --> 00:33:30,983.5839202
That parents have been exposed to these things and they, it's not like you, Click on a light.

505
00:33:30,983.5839202 --> 00:33:34,933.5839202
One day you're homophobic and the next day, Oh, I'm going to the pride parade with you.

506
00:33:35,493.5839202 --> 00:33:36,613.5839202
It's not like that at all.

507
00:33:36,633.5839202 --> 00:33:44,143.5829202
It's you for those LGBTQ youth is you need to give your parents space to learn and to grow.

508
00:33:44,393.5839202 --> 00:33:46,543.5829202
But at the same time, you need to advocate for yourself.

509
00:33:47,193.5839202 --> 00:33:49,593.5829202
You can't just allow them to treat you poorly.

510
00:33:49,923.5839202 --> 00:33:55,803.5839202
You can't allow yourself to be abused or belittled or whatever.

511
00:33:56,353.5839202 --> 00:33:59,703.5839202
And sometimes those boundaries come at a cost sometimes.

512
00:34:00,208.5839202 --> 00:34:04,788.5839202
You lose relationships with people until they're willing to respect you and your boundaries.

513
00:34:05,678.5839202 --> 00:34:11,19.8125673
I think not just LGBTQ parents, but all parents, all people need to hear this.

514
00:34:11,19.8125673 --> 00:34:15,313.4839202
Because it's not just a, it's not just educating the people who are.

515
00:34:16,453.5839202 --> 00:34:19,73.5839202
In the thick of it, it's, let's educate everybody.

516
00:34:19,83.5839202 --> 00:34:27,253.5839202
Even if they're this far removed from the rainbow flag, educate them on why, on what, on all of it.

517
00:34:27,503.5839202 --> 00:34:29,663.5839202
And I think that would help a lot of this.

518
00:34:29,933.5829202 --> 00:34:31,393.5839202
I love what you said.

519
00:34:31,653.5839202 --> 00:34:31,983.5829202
Out there.

520
00:34:31,983.5839202 --> 00:34:32,303.5839202
Yeah.

521
00:34:32,573.5839202 --> 00:34:34,33.5839202
Yeah, I love what you said.

522
00:34:34,33.5839202 --> 00:34:45,663.5839202
And as you were speaking, I'm like, well, you know, maybe that's something within our DBC network too, we could talk about as an admin and get more information from you, Kate, regarding the support groups.

523
00:34:45,663.5839202 --> 00:34:56,328.5839202
Cause I think a lot of parents having the foundation, whether it's here in the state of Utah and you know, the predominant background here, Or elsewhere.

524
00:34:56,348.5839202 --> 00:35:19,558.5839202
I think that this is a struggle for them on the what to do, what to say, how to interact, how to, you know, and so I think hearing those experiences through other parents as well, how did we get through to our, um, child and break through conversations where we can mend that relationship because we've said something stupid or we've, you know, done something that we're just.

525
00:35:19,918.5839202 --> 00:35:24,898.5839202
ingrained with, you know, our blinders on and we didn't mean to be hurtful, but it happened.

526
00:35:24,908.5839202 --> 00:35:28,718.5839202
And, you know, still those, to save those relationships.

527
00:35:28,728.5839202 --> 00:35:30,348.5839202
So we'd love to get more information.

528
00:35:30,348.5839202 --> 00:35:31,968.5839202
Maybe that's something we look at Blane.

529
00:35:33,768.5839202 --> 00:35:38,508.5839202
But it's been so great and insightful just hearing from you every time you talk.

530
00:35:38,508.5839202 --> 00:35:40,388.5839202
I'm just like, ah, she's so inspiring.

531
00:35:40,388.6839202 --> 00:35:44,163.5839202
Where can we find? Get in touch.

532
00:35:44,203.5839202 --> 00:35:51,793.5839202
Like if people are listening right now and they want to talk to you or want something, some inspiration, want you to be a coach for them or speak to them.

533
00:35:52,313.5829202 --> 00:35:55,423.5839202
How, how do they get in touch? Where do we find you? That's a good question.

534
00:35:55,453.5839202 --> 00:35:58,753.5839202
Um, I've actually, I'm still in the process of building.

535
00:35:58,753.5839202 --> 00:36:01,223.5839202
I tell people all the time I'm a work in progress.

536
00:36:01,253.5839202 --> 00:36:04,23.4839202
I don't, you can find me on Facebook.

537
00:36:04,23.5839202 --> 00:36:06,233.5839202
My profile, Kate Kendrick is public.

538
00:36:06,243.5839202 --> 00:36:07,453.5839202
You could reach out to me that way.

539
00:36:07,493.5839202 --> 00:36:11,43.5839202
I've got my TikTok channel, which is midlife exmo mama.

540
00:36:11,383.5829202 --> 00:36:12,303.5839202
Um, and.

541
00:36:12,493.5839202 --> 00:36:18,13.5839202
I am in the process of putting together a website, which I will be launching this next month.

542
00:36:18,483.5839202 --> 00:36:31,513.5839202
And, um, I'm going to be talking about, um, life coaching, public speaking opportunities to be, um, yeah, it's TikTok is, is, uh, it's midlife Exmo mama.

543
00:36:31,523.5839202 --> 00:36:35,393.5839202
Yeah, I got first M in there to make it.

544
00:36:36,283.5839202 --> 00:36:37,43.5839202
Triple mmm.

545
00:36:37,43.6839202 --> 00:36:40,413.5839202
I love it.

546
00:36:40,413.5839202 --> 00:36:42,473.5839202
That's where, that's where you can find me for now.

547
00:36:42,493.5839202 --> 00:36:46,453.5839202
Um, I'm, I'm in the process of building things and I'm grateful.

548
00:36:46,763.5839202 --> 00:36:57,803.5839202
Thank you so much for having me on for this chance to share and to let you know how incredibly grateful I am for the tools and the resources you've provided as the Daybreak Business Community.

549
00:36:58,273.5839202 --> 00:36:59,643.5839202
Um, for me.

550
00:36:59,928.5839202 --> 00:37:02,498.5839202
But all and for giving me space to learn and to grow.

551
00:37:02,498.5839202 --> 00:37:03,268.5839202
Oh, yes.

552
00:37:03,518.5839202 --> 00:37:03,738.5839202
Yeah.

553
00:37:03,738.5839202 --> 00:37:04,948.5839202
That's what we're all about.

554
00:37:05,128.5839202 --> 00:37:07,378.5839202
Because at first I was a little nervous walking in.

555
00:37:07,378.5839202 --> 00:37:09,308.5839202
Like all of these people have their businesses.

556
00:37:09,308.5839202 --> 00:37:11,8.5839202
They've got everything under their belts.

557
00:37:11,8.5839202 --> 00:37:12,418.5839202
They know what they're doing.

558
00:37:13,218.5829202 --> 00:37:13,948.5829202
And I don't.

559
00:37:14,638.5829202 --> 00:37:17,78.5829202
But you're like, yeah, we know better Blane.

560
00:37:17,88.5829202 --> 00:37:21,838.5839202
We're just laughing over here because we're all at different places, right? Different places.

561
00:37:21,838.5839202 --> 00:37:23,868.5839202
And, but we're happy to help each other.

562
00:37:23,898.5839202 --> 00:37:24,808.4839202
That's the biggest thing.

563
00:37:24,808.5839202 --> 00:37:25,578.5839202
We're happy to help each other.

564
00:37:26,678.5839202 --> 00:37:28,608.5839202
Kate, thank you so much for jumping on with us.

565
00:37:30,393.5839202 --> 00:37:32,143.5839202
Midlifexmomama at TikTok.

566
00:37:32,353.5839202 --> 00:37:33,803.5839202
Kate Kendrick on Facebook.

567
00:37:35,223.5839202 --> 00:37:37,213.5839202
And the website will be coming up.

568
00:37:37,603.5839202 --> 00:37:40,603.5839202
I will let you know the name of my coaching business.

569
00:37:40,603.5839202 --> 00:37:45,783.5839202
Because I was really big into social emotional learning and growth for students.

570
00:37:45,853.5839202 --> 00:37:45,863.5839202
SEL.

571
00:37:46,623.5829202 --> 00:37:50,13.5839202
It's kind of a bad name for certain people, but it's Life changing.

572
00:37:50,53.5839202 --> 00:37:50,843.5839202
It changed my life.

573
00:37:51,293.5839202 --> 00:37:55,903.5839202
So my business is called social emotional learning for grown ass adults.

574
00:37:56,333.5839202 --> 00:37:56,843.5839202
I love it.

575
00:37:57,53.5839202 --> 00:37:57,503.5829202
Love it.

576
00:37:58,173.5829202 --> 00:38:00,893.5839202
We need to learn the same skills that are being taught to our kids in school.

577
00:38:00,893.5839202 --> 00:38:01,583.5839202
A hundred percent.

578
00:38:02,183.5839202 --> 00:38:03,533.5839202
So great having you on the show.

579
00:38:03,543.5829202 --> 00:38:04,693.5839202
Thank you again, Kate.

580
00:38:04,813.5839202 --> 00:38:05,733.5834202
Hey, thanks so much.

581
00:38:05,733.5834202 --> 00:38:06,143.5839202
You too.

582
00:38:06,143.6839202 --> 00:38:07,353.4839202
I appreciate it.

583
00:38:07,353.5839202 --> 00:38:11,413.5839202
I gotta tell people real quick that you're going to be hearing a lot more from Kate.

584
00:38:11,543.5839202 --> 00:38:12,293.5839202
Kate Kendrick.

585
00:38:14,243.5839202 --> 00:38:17,963.5839202
That's a little, that's a little, you see that we've planted a seed, Kate.

586
00:38:18,463.5839202 --> 00:38:20,513.5839202
You're going to hear a lot more from her.

587
00:38:20,513.5839202 --> 00:38:21,53.5839202
I promise.

588
00:38:23,663.5839202 --> 00:38:24,943.5839202
We'll see everybody here next week.

589
00:38:25,3.5839202 --> 00:38:26,583.5839202
Hey, thanks so much, everybody.

590
00:38:27,13.5839202 --> 00:38:27,463.5839202
Bye.